July 21, 2018 – The 11th Annual Madison Marathon

What does six years, twenty pounds around the middle, and many, many marathons do to the body?

Empirical evidence (2012 versus 2018):

If I were a member of the A-Team, I’d be “B.A.” Baracus because I have such a bad attitude… and had it from the 3:15 am alarm this morning and then throughout the miles along the gravelly road.

Somewhere amidst the hills, the dive-bombing horse fly squadrons, the head winds, the unending sense of failure, I found myself wondering if I should just cancel the rest of my marathons I’m signed up for. I’m clearly not doing it right. My clock times are slipping, my experience times are sliding.

I feel… defeated? Disappointed? Despondent? I have been using marathoning as a stress relief and a means to a healthier me, but I wonder if I’ve reached the point of diminishing returns?

On the plus side, here in Ennis, MT, I met a guy I see running in my neighborhood at home. He and his wife flew up and it was kind of amazing to meet up in person and actually have a conversation at the finish; normally we pass each other on the roads at home, nod, wave, and wish each other a good day. But here’s me and Bob, two flatlanders post highest road race on the planet.

Indeed, here’s some photos from the day.

I’ve written the majority of this whilst eating an over-priced and middling burger and fries at the local watering hole.  I asked Sam the race director for the best burger in town as a special post-run treat and he recommended the Gravel Bar.

It was fine, truly.  It just wasn’t the greatest burger of all time.  I don’t know.  Maybe I’m just in a sour mode… might be that genetically modified lemonade… or maybe it’s just the way I’m acting/feeling at the moment.  I gotta get out of this funk.

There’s probably more to say, more to tell… but at this stage I gotta pull a Kenny Rogers reference – I’ve got to know when to hold ‘em, know when to fold ‘em, know when to walk away and know when to run.

I guess I know I’m supposed to run tomorrow … but will I? I know if I don’t call it now, if I keep on this track, I’m seemingly less and less likely to run.

So I fold… and maybe I’ll run.